My anxiety level is up again & I'm feeling the need to run away.
I just can't deal.
I can't stop thinking that I need a clean break from almost everything that I know here. I need thousands of miles of space between me & my past, or else the past will always find a way back.
If I stay I either hurt someone or I let myself get hurt, most likely both. If I'm being completely honest with myself, I'm already allowing myself to get hurt. But in the scope of all things, my feelings matter the least. I know that's not true, but it's how I think.
There is so much more to say but in sum I guess there is only one thing: I need to start thinking more of myself.